Hope after masectomies

I am new to this daunting adventure of blogging, but I am hoping that I can be help to others going throught the same experiences as I have this past year.
I recently had a double masectomy which I thought would be traumatizing. For everyone, the experience is going to be different. For me, it wasn't as awful as the chemotherapy. For me, I knew getting rid of my breasts meant freedom. I knew this was the major surgery that would lead to possibly not ever having to have chemo again. It also meant, no more bras.
I am sad they are gone though. I have always been well-endowed, and now I feel completely unattractive. I have a wonderful husband who reassures me and tells me beauty is from within, but really? Why do men look at porn on the computer or by playboy? How can he be attracted to me now. My hair is coming back in, but still extremely short as it's only been a couple of months since chemo has stopped. I realize this sounds vein of me, but looks are important.
How many men out there like to play with breasts during sex? And now I don't have any and won't for a year.
My husband and I were seperated before the cancer and I haven't seen him since I've had my double masectomy. We talk on the phone every day and I know he loves me. But that still doesn't take away the fear that he will be repulsed by my scars. I'm repulsed by them. The scars are a constant reminder of everything I've endured this past year.
I know I should be greatful that I'm alive, and I'm not alone and not the only woman out there that has had to go through this.
I reallize with blogging there should be consistency and some kind of point, and I apologize if my first post I'm rambling a lot. I promise in the future I will hopefully be more entertaining.
For those going through the same experiences I am going through now, I welcome responses or questions. Thank you for reading and following.